Wht the nurse said

Well John came home and I showedd him the bone in a book that the said was fractured last time. John looked up the other words apart from the bone up in a medical dictionary and it's all very interesting to know.

Last time as this time I was told it was soft tissue damage. Ligaments torn etc. No fracture. When it still hurt in March or April, can't recall right now, they x-rayed it again and said no, sorry, only a sprained ankle but that does hurt so much for that long. We thought there was a fracture but we'd have to zoom in sooo close to see it at all and probably it's nothing at all. Silke is being sent home with more morphine substitute.

It still hurt in the new flat. 7 months after.

Now that they took more x-rays in another hospital, more as in "not just 2" and from different angles as well. From me, the docs knew that I sprained it before. They asked me if I broke it before. I said not that I knew and they said well it looks like there was an old fracture. The sheet they gave me to show my GP and Acc says "Avulsion fracture to anterior navicular... old"

You know what that means? That means that the ligament was torn so forcefully that it broke off the bone on which it as fixed. And they didn't see it. Fuck them. I was in such a pain, even when I sprained all of my ribs a few years back, that wasn't as painful as that and it went away completely after 6 month.

I am so pissed off and stressed out and it hurts and I hate being here at hoe not being able to do anything at all. I HATE IT! I want to get out! The sun was shining all day long and we're surrounded by parks. I want to do something. I am so angry that it happened again and that they didn't find out about the fucking fracture before.

Fuck. I want my ankle to be good again. Why can't it just be good and I can climb over rocks without being afraid for it to hurt when I put my foot on the floor the wrong way.

GRRRRR